a rhetoric

so how have i been? apart from the weekly/monthly rendezvous that you see in my blogposts? you should know, photos are my excuse for effortlessly unloading my memory of so & so epsiodes in my not-so eventful existence on earth & tell the story. there are several other unphotographed events in between those posts that are worth writing about but i have a tendency to forget dates, ergo, skipping tales. rye brought me a belle de jour 2009 planner which i have committed to scribble on past & future events in my life but've been too preoccupied recently (or utterly lethargic whichever comes first ahehe) thus unintentionally being forgetful when i am about to write about what i was supposed to write already.

i've always been a sucker for journals ever since high school. i have a knack in documenting everything worth remembering. but beware for it has its cons too. the pros are quite obvious & one of its cons made me regret owning one. i ran away from home back in college to support a fraternity brother outside manila, who was then my boyfriend, out of forced responsibility (i am a loyal member of the same org.). my parents worried, they rummaged through my personal stuff & soon enough got a hold of my then-called diary which i rashly placed in a closet my sister & myself shared & neglected to bring along. they read everything they should not have. stuff about my privy musings, stuffs that plagued my thoughts, secrets that should've just stayed in my own foolish head. sigh.

anyhoo, here are a few updates & thoughts (spontaneously typed, in no particular order ehehe):

gadgets & gizmos - i am feeling a bit woozy as i write this because of insufficient sleep. it was my tulog-off yesterday (day off from a graveyard shift) but i really did not sleep. rye & myself invested on our most expensive conjugal (but we're not married, i just like the word hihi) property. we bought ourselves a brand new car!!! yebah!!! we just relied on tough luck when we posted our old car in cyber buy & sell pages which surprisingly garnered several inquiries & got effortlessly sold the next day! we dedicated the next few days on scouting for a new car. 2 days ago we made a fixed decision which one to get. the following day, we got what we wanted! we will be sharing the herculean task of paying the monthly car loan expenses for the next 5 years. my father too is going to replace his company car w/ the new honda city, one i was initially eyeing for. soon there'll be 4 black cars parked in our garage. our car, dad's, my brother's & my cousin's hehe.

home improvement - we also replaced our old crabby room air conditioner last month which makes our room all nippy even on a summer afternoon. that drew a border line w/ regards to our house's electric bills. i was only responsible for the phone & internet bills but when that new aircon got installed, it was time rye & i shouldered our own electrical consumption.

occasions - yesterday was also my nephew's 2nd month 'birthday'. my sister prepared carbonara & tacos yum! looking forward to 9 more months of delicious pasta!

- took a vacation leave for a couple of days dedicated to my partner's birthday. on april 13th, rye's birthday, he devoted his day to his daughter & partner (moi, whoelse?). we had lunch at italianni's, watched 'monsters vs. aliens' in the afternoon, bought him spalding sneakers as my gift & visited his family at his old place in the evening. we wrapped up the day w/ a bottle of san mig light each. the following day, we fetched his mother & sibling for a yellow cab treat, went to sm for some home (room actually) improvement shopping & brought home a kfc chicken bucket treat for everyone at home . by wednesday (ahem, ang haba ng birthday neto a! hehe), he brought us to bigoli for early dinner, sent our daughter home & spent the rest of the night w/ other friends at the freska & burby's bars. i ordered oysters, a pinacolada, a jack-coke combo & a mojito.

shopping - twice last month, i brought my nieces to greenhills for shopping splurges & expensive dinners. if i save enough money again, i will grant them whatever their tita can afford. our paltry savings for the next 3 months will be due to the 1st 3 most costly downpayments rye & i'll be throwing in for our new car. it'll nearly suck our atm's dry...we should be back in our feet after that.

pets - our puppy ebony died last feb, seemed inevitable. i had a duschand a year ago who suddenly died w/ similar symptoms. i believe it was called a parvo virus. when that duschand died, i lost interest in bringing home dogs. i couldn't dismiss the epidemic that's killing the canines in our neighborhood. cassy, ebony's mom, incredibly is still living & healthy. ebony, hope you're getting all the milk & fun you need in dog heaven!

tv series - so i succumbed into sleepless nights watching gossip girl & currently, house. i find house amusing despite my lack of understanding of hardcore medical lingo. dr. house's brutally honest demeanor is enough to keep me glued on the tv every night. i'm now on season 3.

cyberweb - facebook & twitter addiction. i still open my friendster account but i seldom do updates. facebook & twitter are relatively more fun.

i need to work so this rhetoric stops here. if i think of somethin' else, i'll post a part deux tomorrow.

my worlde part 2

25 random things...

i posted this at my facebook. wanna share it here too...so here i am *:)

(in no particular order)

25. i've always dreamt of having my own band. playin' guitars or doing vocals.
24. i played in a band once in a school after college
23. i joined a sorority back in college, now an alumni, still have strong connections w/ the elders & college residents
22. i am antsy to buy the nokia 5800 express music as soon as it becomes available!
21. i've been to singapore, hongkong & the united states
20. i got addicted to final fantasy X i played it over & over & over again on ps2!
19. i have a tattoo on my lower back, a cross, got it when i was a freshman at college
18. i want another tattoo, at my heel or near my ankle bone
17. i used to be the best counterstrike girl player at my old job's online gaming server
16. i don't drive like a girl
15. not txting back ticks me off big time
14. i made my grade school mates believe i saw the care bears in real life hahaha!
13. this is the day i met him so you'll see this number in my email address, pin codes etc..
12. i have 5 best friends..i wonder who wins if there'd be 'who's the bestest bestfriend?' challenge ehehe
11. i hate losing..not in sports though..i'd give that away haha
10. i rock at guitar hero
9. i'd rather eat galunggong w/ kamatis than any steaks from outback resto
8. i've fooled alot of men w/ my age. some would ask which school i go & most guessed i'm 23 years old. nice!
7. i don't like sharing my food haha
6. i love dogs! now i've grown to love our persian cat whisky
5. kabab w/ ox brain is the best!
4. men are ridiculously needy
3. i'll have curls this month
2. i need to stop smoking
1. my daughter is my battery...she keeps me goin' & goin' & goin'...

cat hunt!

can't shake off this cat-craze episode i'm having!
you see, my nieces are having their birthdays this month & i thought of the perfect gift!

i've been a dog fanatic ever since but that has changed since my chow chow nala, my shih tzu chami & the recent dachshund i purchased all died either from street accidents or disease. i still am a canine devotee, i just couldn't get another one because imported lines are expensive! i got nala for almost 20k & she gave me constant headaches because of her perpetual skin issues. needless to say, maintaining one would eat all my time as no one else in the house shares that task w/ me, as always!

i assume turning to felines would be a tad easier. we've always had stray cats at home but we never took these cats inside. none of these cats are sick & we don't even give a rat's ass how they do or what they eat! they're noticeably healthy animals living at our backyard, unrequiring our attention, & they are still alive!

one time, nicole, my niece, brought home a stray kitten she caught at the hospital during one of her check-ups & brought her home. the kitten was amusingly sweet we treated her like a pet until one day she just disappeared after the new years! we all got disheartened by her loss & we truly miss her. that's when i began hunting for a new pet.

i'm bringing in a cat tomorrow as a present for my nieces! a 1 year old traditional persian pure-white cat. we'll call him whisky. the name: courtesy of rye. nice diba??

i have seen

these all on dvd. movies downloaded courtesy of my dad & rye. taken - liamm's gotten so old! he shouldn't be doing torrid action films like this anymore!

rendition - is this the movie where the reese & jake relationship rooted from? there is not a single scene in this movie of them together tho hehe.

heroes s3 - avid fan of the series i am & rye watching out new episodes from his bittorrent every tuesday night after being shown in the US. had to wait a week before rye can bring the file back home for me to watch arghhh.. the episode (chapter as the series tags it) 2 weeks ago was entitled 'villains'.., the heroes became the villains & vice versa...
employee of the month - i hate jessica simpson (who does not) as the music artist & i've started to hate her much2x more when i saw this movie. she can' act period. i still watched the entire film because i like dane cook. i've seen him on comedy central & have several copies of videos of him when he was just beginning to get famous as a stand-up comedian. his genius jokes are impressively unique, he's got the hunkiest & sexiest voice & he's hot!!

twilight - my office mate khaye have already finished reading the 4 volumes of the twilight saga even before the movie was released. she was lending me the books but i couldn't at that time squeeze 'em in as i was committed to read anne rice's vampire chronicles. for a certainty a chick flick, also according to my friends & cousin. considerably entertaining (for youngsters it'll do). will watch the next 3 volumes via dvd next time.chuck series - hilarious! have just seen a couple of season 1 episodes. can't wait to see the rest of season 1 on my upcoming rest days yey!

sweet preparations!

it's the part of the year where i get the busiest. for one, i've been very busy on preparing for my daughter's 3rd bday! the date is just a few weeks away & it's the year where the date falls exactly on a weekend so we'll celebrate her birthday exactly when she was born, on november 23rd.

items i've accomplished so far are:

1. rented a barney mascot (yes, she's having a barney & friends party & she's going to wear a barney costume!)

- i specifically requested that barney sings the 'i love you' song during the party. my daughter's gonna be so thrilled!

2. ordered cakes & cupcakes from ana baluyut. she's famous for the cakes she makes & i loved the cake she made for rayna's 2nd birthday. a little expensive but cheaper than the basic photo character cakes from red ribbon which ranges from 2500-3k. no regrets ever getting cakes from this gal.

3. closed half of shakey's tomas morato branch. closed the deal w/ a petty 1k dp.

4. shopped at divi for toys for the give aways, name tags, party hats, loot bags.

5. did some grocery for snacks to add weight on the loot bags.

6. burned a barney sing-along cd to be played during her party.

7. finalized the guest list. this time it's gonna be family. 80 max plus kids, and yes, that's just family.

8. sent the invitations.

still on my to-do list:

1. ryan to complete the tarp & ty card layouts & have them printed asap.

2. go to divi for more give aways. we thought what we bought was enough due to the bulk of the shopping bags we were carrying around. i still lack 46 toys to give away.

3. finalize the packaging of the loot bags.

i'm so getting used to this stuff that i think i'll pass as a party coordinator for children's parties! hehe

another that i'm working on is supplying 'entertainment' to our upcoming office xmas party at the blue leaf in taguig. months ago i suggested the vintage theme & it turns out everybody loved the idea. so i thought of pulling in the band 'juan pablo dream', who fits just perfectly with our theme. i'm in charge of settling contracts, finding sound system suppliers etc etc.

good thing jpd's manager is a fraternity brother so there's zero trouble in booking his band. wonderful ei?

i bet both parties are gonna be swell. (cross fingers ehehe)

my wordle

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definitely, maybe

i scarcely laugh at jokes or cry at dramas. but this movie got my tear ducts functioning effortlessly when will hayes (ryan reynolds) knelt at the park infront of his 10yo daughter to tell her what the happy ending of his story was.

rewinding...definitely, maybe is about will hayes (ryan reynolds), a soon-to-be-divorced political consultant who has a 10yo daughter maya (abigail breslin from the movie li'l miss sunshine) who's struggling to come to terms w/ her parents' divorce. she then begs her dad to recount the stories of all the women in his past, how he fell in love & fell out of love (specifically w/ her mom), & maya can guess which one ended up being her biological mother.

the 3 women are emily, april & summer.

one will be guessing throughout the movie the mystery of who the mother would turn out to be & who he ended up with. & i'm sorry but i'm going to spoil it. it was emily who's her biological mother, & the wife will hayes is divorcing. he ended up romancing april (the only name he didn't change in his tale).

why cry? when little maya's getting all confused w/ all the ladies coming into picture & wanted the story cut short, will asked her to be patient & listen to the whole story so she can hear the 'happy ending'. maya in despair, responded how can there be any happy ending when her parents are at the brink of a divorce? will's tale did not finish so their conversation continued the next day at the park. as emily met them there to pick up maya, maya ran back to her dad to thank him for the story. will's response to what the happy ending of the story was - he said, 'it was you maya'. this response struck me (even r). i saw rayna in maya...for all i know, my daughter might ask the same forbidding questions in the next few years. questions & answers i never thought i'd hear & speak of....

simply put, the moral of this movie, no matter how arduous love is, it's always possible to find one's happy ending...& that i don't need to long for a happy ending to my blemished life coz i already have one, just adequate for a perfect ending, my daughter.

anne rice

an avid fan of anne rice's books...i've rummaged through the internet & luckily found downloadable e-books of all of her novels in pdf format. & i mean all. not on bitorrent, just from a very generous website.

i was introduced to this author back in college.

i started reading the mayfair witches collection. enamored by the 1st chapter, i couldn't stop. i finished all three until it became an addiction.

i've just finished one of her earliest novels, cry to heaven. a novel about a boy's journey to stardom & decadence in the conservatories of Rome, mixed w/ confusion & a lifelong plot to take revenge on his brother who turned out to be his father, in Venice. the book details his sexual escapades w/ both genders as well...making the story more exhilarating.

i'm now reading the 1st book from the vampire chronicles, interview with the vampire.

the vampire chronicles are a collection of 10 books & i'm ecstatic i have them all stored safe in my laptop. yey!!!

here without you

.....
But all the miles had separate
They disappear now when I’m dreaming of your face

I’m here without you baby
but you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
and I dream about you all the time
I’m here without you baby
but you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight it’s only you and me

.....
after all this time
I never thought we'd be here
never thought we'd be here....

the most beautiful cgi girls

my pick for the most beautiful is her below...the spectre:
take your pick.

running flat

on our way home from a party.

having a skilled photographer around is really handy hehe.

i was running flat, unaware, for a few miles, until the wheels acted strange, ontop the katipunan flyover. scary.

we stopped at the side street of katipunan & saw the front tire heavily damaged & burned. my brother was intoxicated from the heavy drinking, i was desperate to get help. but a taxi stopped over & the driver did not hesitate a minute & helped us get through the day...err..get to the nearest gas station for our reserve tire was flat as well. arghhhh..

i heard my brother talking to another taxi driver about how corrupt filipinos are. on why most locals would volunteer assistance, but for the money. he got irritated because manong taxi driver was expecting. i just asked him to quit it & let manong help instead of getting nothing. we gave him P200.

we received the same generosity over at the shell station katipunan. bjorn & ariel who left the party later than us, followed us at the station to get the flat tire vulcanized.

looked like alex enjoyed nonetheless so she took pictures!

manong driver, shell katipunan gas boys, bjorn, ariel, thanks a bunch!!! we got home around 7am, when we actually left the party at 5am. at least, we still got home ya?

It's a shame what we've become

When I came here there was more.
Now I've come back to destroy,
And I've got nothing left,
And it's a shame what we've become,
When we hurt the ones we love,
And it's a place I can not go,
Anymore.

When we collide we lose ourselves.
When we collide we break in two,
And as we push and we shove and we hurt the ones we love,
It's a hard mistake.
When we collide,
We break.

When the cold comes crashing down,
And the fight lost what it's about.
I could tell that you'd left.
It's a shame what we've become,
When we hurt the ones we love.
It's a place I can not go,
Anymore.

When we collide we lose ourselves.
When we collide we break in two,
And as we push and we shove and we hurt the ones we love,
It's a hard mistake.
When we collide.

love?

he said he loves her, but not as much as he loves me...

good thing i am a cynic...

love is not quantifiable.

you cannot love one person "a little" and love someone else "a lot".

it's just either you love someone or you do not.

you are revolting.

aeternum vale!

it ends tonight

Your subtleties
They strangle me
I can't explain myself at all.
And all the wants
And all the needs
All I don't want to need at all.

The walls start breathing
My minds unweaving
Maybe it's best you leave me alone.
A weight is lifted
On this evening
I give the final blow.

When darkness turns to light,
It ends tonight
It ends tonight.

A falling star
Least I fall alone.
I can't explain what you can't explain.
Your'e finding things that you didn't know
I look at you with such disdain

When darkness turns to light
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.
Just a little insight
won't make this right
It's too late to fight
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.

Now I'm on my own side
It's better than being on your side
It's my fault when your blind
It's better that I see it through your eyes
All these thoughts locked inside
Now you're the first to know

and if you want me back...you're gonna have to ask nicer than that...

You almost always pick the best times
To drop the worst lines
You almost made me cry again this time
Another false alarm
Red flashing lights
Well this time I'm not going to watch myself die

I think I made it a game to play your game
And let myself cry
I buried myself alive on the inside
So I could shut you out
And let you go away for a long time

I guess it's okay i puked the day away
I guess it's better you trapped yourself in your own way
And if you want me back
You're gonna have to ask
Nicer than that...
Nicer than that...

With my foot on your neck
I finally have you
Right where I want you
Right where I want you
Right where I want you

injured myself

i hurt myself, while i was asleep. i was laying face down, & i know i did this consciously, swiftly lifted my right leg to shift my sleeping position to lay on my back. reflex from the rest of my body did not function promptly so i twisted every joint from my buttocks to my knees. the pain was searing!!! still laying face down, my eyes welling up, i waited for a few minutes for my bones to realign, teetering from side to side.

after 5 mins, unrelieved from the excruciating pain, i sluggishly lifted myself up from the bed & tried to walk. i could not fucking walk w/o screaming in pain! i laid back in bed & prayed to God that i'd soon get over the suffering. i was already uttering help, but no one heard me. i rang his #. why him? because he had plans earlier to take rayne so maybe he can still fetch her & drop me at the capitol med. but ofcourse i didn't get an answer. fool. the ever so unreliable fool.

still waiting for the pain to wean out, i already dialled april's # but ended the call soon after. i was supposed to advise her that i won't be reporting for work coz on the top of my head was that i won't be able to drive myself to the hospital nor work. but i let it wait, carried on with faith that it'll be over soon...like every other tribulation i had tolerated, withstood & thrived.

i closed my teary eyes, clinching my pillows, & slept for another 3 hours on the same position when it all occured. but i no longer moved that time.

when i woke up, i felt a little soar, but the pain was gone. thank God it's over....again.

beauty in a couch

ever eyed for something you've wanted so bad but can't afford it?

i eyed for this couch since time immemorial (exag na naman!). seriously, i was gunning for this couch since i 1st laid steps inside the trinoma mall. i don't remember the name of the shop (did i really have to?). it's across the play area where i bring my toddler to, leaving her w/ her yaya while i do the shopping. whenever i pass by, i check out this couch & just sigh in frustration, because i could never ever afford such a beauty. i am frugal by nature. i have just began to spend more than a thousand for shoes (pero a diamond in the rough ang dating dapat ng shoes na yun!). i would alot more budget than the regular, but only WHEN the stuff i'll be buying is necessary OR WHEN it's for my daughter. the couch was P6K.

we went to trinoma a few weeks ago, placed my daughter at the play area & by chance went inside the shop across it. a whopping placard stating 50% OFF was upon the couch!! weeepeee! i did not have second thoughts! i snagged it & brought it home.

here's my daughter on it. such a lovely addition to my groovy room ya?

what do i mean to you?

What Genna Means

You are deeply philosophical and thoughtful. You tend to analyze every aspect of your life. You are intuitive, brilliant, and quite introverted. You value your time alone. Often times, you are grumpy with other people. You don't appreciate them trying to interfere in your affairs. You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone. You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together. At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together. You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people. You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts. You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals. You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

a bitch, i am

When I stand up for myself and my beliefs,

they call me a bitch.

When I stand up for those I love,

they call me a bitch.

When I speak my mind, think my own thoughts,

or do things my own way, they call me a bitch.

Being a bitch means I won't compromise what's

in my heart.

It means I live my life MY way.

It means I won't allow anyone to step on me.

When I refuse to tolerate injustice and

speak against it, I am defined as a bitch.

The same thing happens when I take time for

myself instead of being everyone's maid, or

when I act a little selfish.

It means I have the courage and strength to

allow myself to be who I truly am and won't

become anyone else's idea of what they think

I 'should' be.

I am outspoken, opinionated and determined.

I want what I want and there is nothing wrong with that!

So try to stomp on me,

try to douse my inner flame, try to squash

every ounce of beauty I hold within me.

You won't succeed.

And if that makes me a bitch,

so be it.

I embrace the title and I am proud to bear it.

B - Babe

I- In

T - Total

C - Control of

H - Herself

B - Beautiful

I - Intelligent

T - Talented

C - Charming

H - Hell of a Woman

B - Beautiful

I - Individual

T - That

C - Can

H - Handle Anything