snapshots we've missed

ryan sold his cellphone so he had no choice but to transfer all the pictures from his phone to his pc. finally, i got a hold of those shots of my baby during her 4th and 9th month celebrations. i'll post 'em now before i get to forget them..and before rayne's 10th month tomorrow. *:)

i was in the states when baby turned 4 mos. was so sad i missed it. her tita jo's holding her in this shot.

and then she turned 9 months old...

good that she didn't attempt to smother herself w/ this cake. it could've been too hard to clean her up if she did

had no choice but to buy the pasta combos from jollibee again which was located just a few blocks away from rye's place

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oh yeah!! i've finally completed HBO's "Six Feet Under" TV series. thanks to alex, i got a hold of the last season which i desperately hunted for in the internet for months. the season comprises of 5 seasons and i have the whole 3 season length in VCD copy. i was tempted years ago to buy the incomplete series in VCD format but intended to burn my colleague's copies instead. i don't have them intact anymore, i started to not care because i was hopeless in completing it anyway. and now TV series' in DVD format are now in trend, i plan to buy the entire series in the future. i got envious of alex since she's got to have her own copy first off. it was a wedding anniversary gift from her husband. (so lucky!)

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rye and i grabbed some very late dinner at the blue ginger bar near his place in mayon last night. we went drinking with some pals at that bar just last saturday. we, rye and i, seldom drink with friends since we had rayne so taking that time out was very refreshing.

tomorrow is baby's 10th month..and in a few months her 1st year. i am so excited!! i hope she is too!!

melancholy

8/23

supposed to document my daughter's 9th month w/ pictures but rye has not transferred the pics to our pc so i don't have any shots to post at this time.

held it at her lola's place. we brought rayne to her lola's since the 22nd coz my mom had some out of town activities and i don't prefer leaving my daughter to her yaya's while i'm out for work. i bought a chocolate chiffon cake from goldilocks, and spaghetti and palabok from jollibee. i got to rayne past noon. we celebrated earlier than usual so as not to spoil the food while they were fresh and warm. we opened the cake box and pasta lids and took pictures w/ rayne (which actually is the core of the event..hehe). rye's relatives went upstairs after an hour and chowed on the food as well. i brought home some left-over spag and cake.

i went to ate rose's house round 8pm, just a few blocks away from rye's, to find a bunch of my college sorority sisters and fraternity brothers having a small after-school drinking session. saleng invited me earlier to drop by ate rose's because they were bringing a neophyte along. i gave the neo some lessons and apparently found it hard to scare her off, although i played her a bit. i stayed for an hour after drinking a few shots of red horse and sped off to rye's place so we can send baby home before it got too late.

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8/25

was on my way to work around 230pm, via the mrt, when my supervisor called me. she advised that our fellow helpdesk will not make it to his 7pm 12-hour shift in the evening, hence, i HAD to cover. i hastily agreed to cover, or was i out of my head?, turned around and went home. i stepped off the train at the cubao station, w/c apparently was a mistake due to the chock-full of people, plus the pollution and swarming buses in edsa. i instantly went looking for a cab which i realized was impossible when you look for one at edsa. so i hurried towards the araneta/gateway route and found myself one. got home before 4pm, had pedicure, and took a nap for an hour beside my daughter who's having her afternoon nap as well. i left for work before 6pm.

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in the next week, i had to bring rayne at her lola's again, twice. my mom had some important errands and on one of those days, yaya wasn't around. i took her back home last saturday only. rayne extracted from her dad or maybe my mom, the flu and it is so pitiful whenever she coughs. i brought her mucosolvan drops as prescribed by her doctor.

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9/2-3

i took rayne from her lola's. they were celebrating a relative's death anniversary that day so there was a pizza from napoli and cooked spag. me and yaya, since rye stayed home sleeping, ate a few and drove home. alex visited in the evening. we went to sheila's at 11pm to drink some beer and have some girl-talk. we finished around 3am and brought home with us some freebies like meds and head cushions. alex and i chatted for some more until 530am and finally dozed off beside my daughter. rye woke me up an hour and a half later to ask me out for early breakfast. we brought our daughter to pancake house who got awaken by my cphone's ringtone when rye called. it was the very first that we spent almost a thousand for food and just for the 2 of us. he ordered a 300 peso steak meal, and his usual grilled ham & cheese sandwich. i got half of the asian salad and a cheese waffle to share for dessert. our daughter got cranky a few minutes later because she wasn't getting any food so we were forced to order mashed potatoes, which was the only menu edible for her age. she enjoyed her food after a few tastes and got all cranky again. we had to hurry up and had the waiter pack all the left-overs so we can bring rayne back home. she was looking for her milk and immediately fell asleep when we got back. i napped for a few hours too. alex rose as soon as we returned to give rye and rayne space to sleep on our bed. she was awake all morning and randomly took care of our daughter while we were alseep. alex left w/ rye around 8pm. then i was left alone with rayne again....

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today..

it's alex' bday so happy birthday sweetheart! and thanks for being there for me!

steve erwin, the crocodile hunter, got killed today by a stingray by the way. we've been watching cnn at work all day and everytime the news about him shows up, everybody talks about the ironies of his passing...

august has been the worst month. there seems to be dark clouds hovering over me everyday. i haven't smiled willfully for a number of days already. i don't know if i can overcome this sadness and God knows there's only one thing that can make this all go away.....

i wish things will fall into place, soon. i desperately seek clarity and enduring happiness. thank God i have rayne, for she inspires me to be strong and move on. i love you rayne, you are my only source of bliss and i promise to never leave you until my last breath. for whatever has been decided for us cannot be controlled. if it's just going to be the 2 of us, we can make it i promise ok? i love you my baby....